The H in Harare is for hustlers

The H in Harare is for hustlers

I took a walk to the shops lovely sunny day. Just as I got to complex besides the normal airtime ,tomato  vendors there was a car CVR with boot open a man was  engaging everyone who passed by to come see his merchandise “socks" I politely declined and proceeded to my destination .. while looking thru the aisle a man passed me , seemed to be talking to himself then he told me the pie needs to be eaten at a car wash because they mess the car....I tried to explain flaky pastry didn't get it . . Anyway bumped into him again and he told me he sold tracksuits custom made well made from scratch.  .got back home bumped into a lady walking down the stairs..She greeted me and I thought maybe she stays here, as our paths crossed she told me she was selling chickens.....

Is this our mental state ...go out and hunt or die...we live in an environment where your job might not be enough to maintain your life or just survive.....the concrete jungle as Bob Marley "No chains around my feet But I'm not free I know I am bounded in captivity"

Wonder what people are working to get I see so many people have trolleys full of alcohol or meat ...do they ever think let's save this money and go for a holiday.... saving does take time some live for the now.  ..... We need to open our minds and see what is outside our comfort zone.  See the country be that person with the story of "when I went to...."  

Learning to unwant something..

Is it possible... that u can go through a period when you want something that somehow seems yours and then again you might be mistaken.
the universe        playing tricks maybe... that you having being in the right place at the right time ,.... and other forces lets say opposite of fate will put little devils on your shoulder and tell you not be be there but fighting sleep.. fighting all that seem like obstacles you end up in that place... the signs point to it in big bright lights " first street back in the day .. the big shabang or like on tv Vegas or what they show.............  but then the lights go off like what the?  dear universe are you having global issues with power .. should i light you up with my passion... so im tired of the faulty lights .. or are they faulty .. maybe time for light bulb change all 1,063 of them but then again i think i changed a few and i must have put in the wrong type.....

Divine  intervention(Divine Intervention The hand of God holds the universe together and makes everything work. Science is a conspiracy theory put forth by the devil and his satanic angels to forward the ideas of determinism.) yes let God change the bulbs light the way ... i need to get my heart lit up .........................

 Lights there is a force or some form of attraction we cant explain maybe it has been but yah anyway " follow the light"   except when its early in the morning and someone forces open the curtain and you aren't ready for the light.. i think i was somewhat ready but these power issues my goodness ,.. talk about have a girl thinking she is crazy ..... need a proper back up solution that either has power all the time or a fixed schedule  ...  Day and night yes i get it the stars are in existent for a reason but sometimes we get so acustomed to the light we say the day does not have enough hours but the night needs to exist we cant have it all well u could find a place in the world were the sun never goes down.. but one day the human in you will open a door close the blinds and not want a drop of light ...darkness.. you know the light will be there when you open up .. well you hope it will be until you only manage to sleep for an hour and feels like you slept for ever and wake up and still light ...............

to be continued............................

THE MOTIONS OF THE WEEK

what a busy week.... trials miyedzo....  multi tasking on a whole other level...   monday started had a plan .. the day didnt go according to my plan 

this week i have been hearing a lot of wise word.. or rather i have been listening more.. CAREFULLY

around mid week i had the biggest challenge well making bookings VISA; dealing with people via email and phone and i was so frusrtrated most was not my fault but yah in the moment you dont quite get that .. its all stress maiwe zvangu "it cant why why"  and i remember trying to make a transfer it was a crazy day and  panic panic panic .. anxiety all had consumed me ..and i was talking to one of the ladies assisting me " in that moment i listened .. her words "dont worry " it wasn't loud like she stood on top of a mountain okay maybe a chair and got my attention.. but it was a normal calm voice "DOnt worry " she spoke to me.... i would say she spoke to my soul might be too much ,, but she spoke to my anxieties and my crazy It ant thoughts..

as the week went on i listened a bit more .  

"the day was set already you just have to go through the motions"  interesting i thought

my fav bit of knowledge that spoke to me was the bit on "great things are born from a struggle"

good references from the Bible 

Peninnah  and Hannah (Hannah bore the first prophet, Samuel is it?)

Birth of Leah 

Birth of Joseph 

great people born from a struggle of some sort... my week was hectic ..

but it is ending with anxiety at 0.5 % .  God is good ... the good shepherd ....  

The Corporate Madam

The Corporate Madam

Here she is a year later and a couple months , ... lets start from the beginning

i think i approached work with a stepping on egg shells kinda work experience.   the hunger to learn but also to knowing not to step over certain boundaries "that's not my job thinking" but when i did do that, it felt as if i was stabbing well not stabbing maybe chocking myself ,, i didn't like the feeling of not doing something.  but with time i learnt how certain things did work.  some i am still learning but sometimes its better to assist you never know how one will appreciate the assistance but not everyone.

i have friends who always told me how lucky i am to have got a Job out of uni and some having being looking for sometime,  .  but as much as i feel i have a degree education, work is a different type of class and lecture,  nothing those distinctions will teach you.   im trying to remember if they ever told me to enjoy those one month to three month vacations even those long weekends.. God bless South Africa and all their public holidays , i miss them..   i started off basically work at 8 am knock off at 5 pm straight on the dot.  like aint gotta tell me twice . enjoyed my weekends.  and i switched departments wow it was interesting hello coming to work on weekends and i realized we had very few public holidays in Zimbabwe like really how why? i didnt remember this because last holidays were school holidays always long.. ok back to my point they never told you to enjoy holidays because success comes with no breaks,, i think to myself sometimes how i would love a break but the hunger and diet of constant(consistency is key) learning has me staying put availing myself to learn as much as i can.   i was thinking what super hero would i be i thought hulk but maybe emotionally .uni needs a module on emotions i remember communication like space interpersonal blah blah theory is so over rated--the real thing is deep like gosh i could drown.. i think i did a couple of times and yes i Came back to life (bad ass remember i am somewhat of a super hero in the making maybe spider man still deciding) .....back to the point people stress is not that little beef or not talking to people. u kinda build a family and then again you become part of a brand .  so what ever you do especially externally you need to smile... deal with customers best your can.  after all without them you wont have a job.  and i learnt about internal customers yah m,,those are super important .  you wont get along with everyone but does not mean you have to go out of your way to go to war.. but that will be another post.  this post is more a rant of how far iv come and how much iv learnt im not a car girl but i found myself in charge of a fleet of 6 cars and an interesting team that had to drive them..  i had no idea it was like Greek someone would tell me what car they want by telling me the make and even shocking to me then the number plate.   im like how do you even do that.  i learnt how to calculate fuel per kilometers and i was like huh at first like i always heard someone say oh i need 5litres chcichi and never got how far especially with distance (km),, with a few sessions with the boys who tried to con me (those make you stronger situations) im like a verbal theoretical mechanic.  and yes getting everyone to prove where they  were absolutely the best part .. when u realize when you have been had.. its an aha kinda moment like you aint going to fool me twice.  

i will leave it at that will share more of how iv grown and how the School lecture of work is going..

 hope you enjoyed this burst of a rant from this corporate madam 

Re : "Invent" part one

To reinvent has been defined as;

 1. To replace (a product, etc.) with an entirely new version
2. To duplicate (something that already exists) in what is therefore a wasted effort (esp in the phrase reinvent the wheel)

I think at some point in our lives we have  tried to do one of the above or both just at different times in our lives. Sometimes all at once. Misinterpretation I guess kind of like when we use a word that has same pronunciation but different spelling and meaning all together....
back to reinventing,  I think the first definition of coming up with something completely new, I pictured a demolition machine the bulldozer gives me the chills, is that not a bit too extreme? Yes, maybe a makeover is needed little paint, change the door hinges so no noises when people enter and leave. Redo windows something a bit modern replace the broken or cracked so get a better view in an out..... TO BE CONTINUED

Signs

We all experience a time in our lives when we search for signs, to help direct us as we go through our journey called LIFE.  But do we need direction why not be like the wind, go every direction don’t take time at the cross roads thinking “which way should I go?” as they say time is precious.  Be like the wind go every direction and so you will not have to go through life thinking you went the wrong way, because you went every way and after going round you have saved time and return when it suits you.

·         Go North because it made you beyond happy.

·         Go West because you experienced something new, tasted new food, made new friends, learnt how to handle yourself , you took the chance, you had guts.

·         Go South to run away and not want to be, even if it was for a heart beat, to just have that space your own world where everyone in that world is you, imagine how to make your hidden thoughts a reality.

·         Go East where you were sad, depressed disappointed by others, heart broken all the sadness in the world.

Direction: (Oxford...) “A course along which someone or something moves; the way something faces.”

A compass well usually we think compass and first thing that comes to mind is North, East, South, West (NESW), but like our life we have to think beyond that. We go through so much we can’t only have four directions, so we have a few more;

North-East

North-West

South-East

South-West

Which makes eight ways to turn, but then again a compass is by human standards 360°, I think our lives we have so many options 360 ways to turn, random I know... there is always an option or is there ? Maybe too many when we look west to the sunset, quickly distracted by the moon and stars coming out as the sun rising to the East!

Finding direction can be so difficult I think, and sometimes it takes time ,help , thinking , going with that little voice in your head,, or like in cartoons the little devil and angel on either side of your shoulder.  A lot people turn to God for help which is I think is one of the best places.We are like children and God being our so awesome parent wants us to learn and how else will you know fire burns unless you touch it, tough love maybe but love is LOVE is it not. 

We have friend’s, family to turn to as well but sometimes it’s just a waste of time on the person who we have turned to or when we do decide to change direction the person we find standing in front of us.  We have all gone through that period when we get advice and sadly do the exact opposite, the example at the top of my head, relationship advice “Leave him/her alone his/she’s no good!”  I really wonder which part of the brain just lets the common sense go or maybe it’s the bit connected to our emotion meter the heart.

Having thought of these directions eight /360 of them I was thinking maybe I could be West-East, East-West, North-South, South-North which would be in the middle the cross road, intersection.

Intersect (Oxford...) “divide or cross by passing or lying across.”

So would there be North with out East, etc hmmm?

Trash

So I have been listening to “Wandirasa” by Chiwoniso Maraire local Zimbabwean artist, religiously and names have been popping into my head, not so many a couple, I lie about a quad lol. Just thought I’d put a laugh in there. So yes “Wandirasa” meaning “have thrown me away” it is a break up song, a beautiful one too. So when I thought being thrown away I thought of trash, for someone to dispose of you, they would have deemed you trash. Having had you new and used you till their hearts fulfillment, and then decide that your time to be used has come to an end. They would have done all they can think of wash you till the color comes out of you, recycle you, use your till there is nothing left of you and throw you in the trash, they leave you in a state that even the homeless will not want. And at times after throwing you into the trash at night they go to sleep and while in bed realize it was a mistake and wake up in the morning, too late the trash is gone. But homeless people, well beggar's are not choosers, I don’t think that makes sense at all but yes you know the “Saying beggar’s are not choosers” <